had pilot pen competition this week, and they cannot change the partnering so i partnered ether. had our first match on mon and we were playing against HCI, din know if they were good anot so i was damn scared. this pilot pen competition is the first ever badminton competition representing sch that ive taken part lahh. the first one in my life. i played like some idiotic noob lahh. couldnt get the shots over, couldnt turn my shoulders, hitting shots into the net, total failure ... but we won in the end, but i wasnt veh happy cause i suck like shit. i pulled down ether lahh, she played well but with me as a partner .. GG ..
den today we played against mj cheryl pang and yiping. i was DAMN scared ... couldnt settle myself down. was jumping abt, walking here and there .. the guys played first then was the girls. me and ether were the last to play. the first match was kns .. seriously .. i played like some shit that i feel like killing myself ON THE SPOT. and obviously, we lost the 1st set. den 2nd set we were better and won 23-21 !! YAYYAYYAY !! ^^v i was like falling in the court lahh. so embarrassing ..
but for the third set, we were leading but soemhow i got more and more nervous and we lost all because of my mistakes and carelessness. im just not able to think properly on court .. ><
im gone case. i played like some idiotic mad woman in the court, and played like i just learnt badminton 2 months ago. i suck totally, got so nervous in court that i couldnt play well. ppl always say that dun take it too hard, take it as an experience, but i just couldnt take it lightly. im like i wanna, like what karen always say, i wanna prove myself. i wanna prove that i can play better but i totally screwed it up. okay, maybe i just suck to the core, cant do things well, cant get things right and always the slowest and always making ppl angry. i suck totally and i hate myself totally. ><
i hai4 ether lost pilot pen. im sorry ether ... im sorry ppl that i disappointed all of you ... ><
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