had pilot pen competition this week, and they cannot change the partnering so i partnered ether. had our first match on mon and we were playing against HCI, din know if they were good anot so i was damn scared. this pilot pen competition is the first ever badminton competition representing sch that ive taken part lahh. the first one in my life. i played like some idiotic noob lahh. couldnt get the shots over, couldnt turn my shoulders, hitting shots into the net, total failure ... but we won in the end, but i wasnt veh happy cause i suck like shit. i pulled down ether lahh, she played well but with me as a partner .. GG ..
den today we played against mj cheryl pang and yiping. i was DAMN scared ... couldnt settle myself down. was jumping abt, walking here and there .. the guys played first then was the girls. me and ether were the last to play. the first match was kns .. seriously .. i played like some shit that i feel like killing myself ON THE SPOT. and obviously, we lost the 1st set. den 2nd set we were better and won 23-21 !! YAYYAYYAY !! ^^v i was like falling in the court lahh. so embarrassing ..
but for the third set, we were leading but soemhow i got more and more nervous and we lost all because of my mistakes and carelessness. im just not able to think properly on court .. ><
im gone case. i played like some idiotic mad woman in the court, and played like i just learnt badminton 2 months ago. i suck totally, got so nervous in court that i couldnt play well. ppl always say that dun take it too hard, take it as an experience, but i just couldnt take it lightly. im like i wanna, like what karen always say, i wanna prove myself. i wanna prove that i can play better but i totally screwed it up. okay, maybe i just suck to the core, cant do things well, cant get things right and always the slowest and always making ppl angry. i suck totally and i hate myself totally. ><
i hai4 ether lost pilot pen. im sorry ether ... im sorry ppl that i disappointed all of you ... ><
it got me home
2:15 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
I HAD SO MUCH FUN YTD !! we had a PAE CG0708 chalet/bbq !! AND IT WAS SUPER FUN !! wahahahahah ^^ met xiaoqin at 930 at TM mrt .. went up to the control station saw neemeng zhengxian daryl and sijia hahahahaha ^^ den benjamin came with his mum den we all went to take the shuttle bus to NSRCC ehh we missed the bus cause we din know that was THE bus hais ...... den we reached there at ard 1045 went in and the guys started to play PS2 .. -.- den i went to helped auntie to heat up the beehoon AND I CAN DO HOUSEWORK OKAY !!!!! den rachel called and she missed the shuttle bus -.- so we decided to ask her buy lunch for us hehehehhe :P den while waiting for her i slept for awhile .... heheheh :P den she bought us chicken rice and goreng pisang and she din know goreng pisang is fried banana ... =,= den we played mahjong !! WAHAHAHAHA ^^ MY GOD AM I LUCKY .. i din win at first ... but at the end i won quite alot in one game .. but we din bet real money .. sianzzzzzz -.- hahahaha ^^ den they went to cycle me may and sijia stayed in the chalet we watched yonex all-england open !! hahahaha ^^ the mixed doubles is so exciting .. :D it was xiezhongbo/zhangyawen vs anthonyclark/donnakellogg but the china pair won in the end rubber set .. den the bbq started !! YAYYAYYAY !!^^v all the food were nice !! esp. the stingray and sotong !! wahahahahaha :D den went for bowling !! as usual, i played like shit in the 1st game and i got better in the 2nd game and guess who i saw there .. eug's bf .. :D den played a game of mahjong den had to go home liao .. im gonna miss PAE CG 0708 .. we are like so bonded together lahh .. gonna miss all the fun we had together for the past 2 months hope we can meet up more often thou we are not in separate classes >.< feel real sad now .... ><
holiday is here which means i had one week's time to catch up whatever im lagging behind i promised to study hard in this week i sucked totally at work thou i studied hard i just dun so well in tests ppl always say" you study hard and you will score well ... " it is not true in my case it really ponders me if getting into tj is the correct choice for me i tried so hard to get in because of the badminton team but im like a total sucker in academics ppl dun study oso can score well i study like shit staying late till like 2am to study but i still fail in the end i dunno if getting into a jc is the right choice for me maths is always my best subject but i actually fail the first maths test in tj im really scared that this will continue and afraid that i will get retained im really scared .......
it got me home
9:44 AM
ME AND MYSELF
august29 baby
yishan aka xiaozhu :D
AHS sportsclass 3Fo6 4Fo7
i love 4Fo7! <3
sportsclass of 2004-2007 rocks! (:
now in TJC 0608! (:
i love TJBT! <3
WISHLIST
for new bag and shoes
for new shirts
for more money
to go overseas
for a laptop
nationals top 4 in badminton
all A for a levels
FOR MORE TIME!
