went to airport ytd like what shiling said terminal one is really a nice place to quiet yourself down a place really suitable place to san4 xin1 and think about a lot of things .. really ALOT ..
seeing all the planes fly away at the viewing gallery it seems as if everything just fly into my mind from frens to family i started crying like hell knows when tears just started to flow down like a waterfall ohmygod embarrassing .. hais .. so many people saw me !! i think they think tt i just broke up with my bf .. hahahahahahahah :D LOLS -.-
been thinking lotsa things first is my family .. my sis been sick since monday .. just on wed my sis de fever went up to 40.5 degreecelcius my mum ordered me not to go near my sis cause im having exams i feel so useless when my sis is like suffering and i could do nothing but to look from far .. ):
then is frenship i really suck at frenship i really dunno what to do now we have two cliques xiaoqin and ether one clique sinyee wenmei and eugenia another clique and im sort of stucked in btw if i go to xiaoqin tt clique i would lose sinyee tt clique if i go to sinyee tt clique i will lose xiaoqin tt clique it seems like im fated to choose one and lose one i know im greedy but i want both i want to go back to what we are like before like a clique of 5 and 6 go out together and do everything together i dunno if they ever wanted to make up but i do i've been thinking how can i do to make them together but i seems my little brain has no idea .. ): seriously .. i really treasure OUR frenship people would ask me about our relationship and i would always say " i dun care lahh .. just let nature takes it course .. " but seriously .. i care alot .. ALOT .. why do i think tt im always alone ..? thou i looked perfectly fine when im out with them but i do feel very sad .. everytime i would console myself its okay .. once you go to jc you would have new frens but i really care alot people would be like " why do you care so much ? just be yourself .. " but i cant .. no matter how i tell myself not to care .. i still care .. cause i cant be indifferent .. i love and care all of you ..
some people told me why dun you just choose the clique which has the most frens which is sinyee's clique but i cant cause xiaoqin and ether are oso very impt to me not saying tt sinyee tt clique is not .. but somehow my instinct told me to choose xiaoqin and ether cause i care more ? cause i needed them more ? cause i love them more? cause they are more close to me ? people would ask .. but i oso dunno .. just .. chose them .. but i oso wanted to be good with sinyee and wenmei and eugenia im really in a dilemma not sure what im gonna do to improve this i feel like no one understands me .. feels like no one wanted to improve this im really tired .. tired of facing everyone .. as if i've already acccepted the reality and sort of gave up sinyee tt clique NO !! im not so .. i care ..!! i care alot !! IM CONFUSED .. really confused .. tired and not sure wad to do ..
(terminal one is really a good place to san4 xin1)
it got me home
1:10 PM
ME AND MYSELF
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yishan aka xiaozhu :D
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to go overseas
for a laptop
nationals top 4 in badminton
all A for a levels
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